Feb. 6th, 2011

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Well, I think the uppers of all the chaos in life have finally settled back out to daily routine. I imagine this is why I'm feeling a bit down as of the past week or so... great job making good money, don't owe on the taxes and still living in the nicest area I've yet lived and still feeling down...

Mostly past regrets. Wishing I could've saved a friendship instead of giving in to my own fears and doubts and thus creating more stress than there already was. Wishing I'd put more money into savings... WAY more into savings... wishing my mom was all better. She is getting better with the chemo but that's only a temporary fix. Eventually the cancer will take over and there won't be anything to do for it. If there's anything I miss right now, it's Kaelyn's ability to comfort, she was pretty phenomenal at giving people comfort, especially me.

What I miss more though, is just having a friend nearby to hang out with and talk to. I've made friends here, even a Disneyland buddy (Huzzah Chaccaron!) but they can't replace my best friend. Amy, git yer butt down here and visit! I need my best friend for a while again... I'm feeling lonely.

I guess it's late and I'm feeling introspective and whiny. Don't get me wrong, things are still very good. The relationship with the husband-guy has seen only one (actual) fight in the last several months which is record for us, considering we'd be fighting several times a week before. The stress level is practically non-existent compared to before we moved. But with that good came the bad of leaving behind the few people I still cared about and like to be around, you cheeky knitters, you...

I'd better head to bed, I have to work tomorrow and the boss has a bad habit of leaving a pile of incoherent work for me in the two hours he's in the office by himself. Wouldn't be a good start to the week if I went in tired on Monday.



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